CRASHED and burning.....

I am now sitting at my table after a lunch which consisted of corn, 2 chicken wings and 1 stick of calamaries...

Was in my GM's room for abt 45mins... MAN.. why is everytime i enter his office, i can rarely escape without any injuries... This time, he was upset that i took so long to come up with a paper which he mentioned close to 1 mth ago. Honestly, i also don't know why it took so long... the paper was revised over and over again for the past 1 mth.. for what reasons? i have no idea... my DGM wants me to clear with my SRM on my project papers and reports first before going to her. However, my SRM is never free and he doesn't clear my papers cos he is too tied up with other admin matters... i sent that paper to be cleared when my GM requested it.. and it toooookkkk so LONNNGGGGG to be cleared.. is it my fault that i did not chase after my SRM hard enough? maybe.. mabye...

next he was upset that there are so many mistakes on the paper.. however, it has been vetted by DGM and SRM already.. and there is still mistakes.. i think i need to brush up on being more careful with my papers.. honestly, i hate pushing papers, writing papers.. however, in all line of work, there is a lot of admin work.. i simply have to put up with it... as it is, i am being to doubt my capabliities when it comes to writing...

he reminded me that i am no longer a SA officer who only does very simple reports. NOW i am a PROJECT OFFICER who needs to pay attention to protocols, paper writing, handling outside correspondance with care.. need to mind my words, always clear work and decisions with my bosses first... anything have to update GM, DGM, SRM.... my SRM said that i do not keep him updated about my things.. but he never bothers to write down and for appointments i even wan to write on his diary for him, he also cannot FIND it for me to fill it in for him...

this portfolio is really making my doubt my work abilities...

had an interview which i sort of know after the interview that i will not be selected... a bit sad actually.. but it also reminded me that i do not have skills of counselling.. so i should bear that in mind first when i send out any such related field resumes.. SUCKS i know... but have to put up with it..

it really makes me ponder if i am actually looking for the correct places for jobs opportunities...