Day 1 of testing

As mentioned before, i texted this idiot guy on sat noon, abt 1pm to ask how was his event.. and guess what.. he replied me today at abt 1plus (he took 24hrs to reply me???) his reply: sorry hor, din reply you yesterday. it was very sian yesterday... and i was the last one to leave cos i had to entertain the media..

oh my goodness.. you took 24hrs to reply me? what the FISH??? that tells me that my sms are probably not impt for you to reply.. so its an indication that you are not really interested in me.... (think i'm a bit pissed and a little bit of relief)

i replied his sms after the concert (it had, chong qing, cai li lian, kelly poon, jonathan leong, hardy, gong shi jia and SHE!!!) heeheee... enjoyed myself at the concert.. so only decided to reply cos i knew his sms would probably irritate me...

my stomach started to act up again during the concert.. so i replied his sms asking what time is he going to work, etc... then he told me that he needs to have breakfast with our GM.. so i said, okie then... i then HIGHLIGHTED that my tummy was feeling weird again.. and guess what.. there was no word of concern.. not a single word of it in his next 4 reply sms although i stressed in all of them that i was feeling unwell, having dinner and on the way back on the cab, feeling sick.. wah champion already.. don't know what to say....

i have to say that dave is prob right.. he is just comfortable with me and likes my company.. so he is not really thinking of going further.. he only wishes to maintain it this way.. free and easy... so if this is the case... to be honest.. think it will become a game for me.. just treat him like a friend and nothing else.. cos if i take him seriously, i would end up hurting myself.. which is the thing i do not want to do most...

i mean, he does not make any efforts to ask me out properly out on dinners, coffee, supper, movies or lunches.. he is always using his time as a gauge.. then ask me very last minute...

he doesn't really respect my time... he does not care if i helped him carry his stupid paperbag of stuff till i had abrasions on my fingers (carrying it round town is no joke), didn't even offer to offer a ride from the the mrt station nearest to his place to pick up his stuff.... i mean this is not about whether he likes me or not.. this is about trying to make an effort for even FRIENDS... you know something, i was quite disappointed cos my feet were very painful from the heels i wore.. plus the abrasions, it was making me feel quite irritated and sad.... cos think he is not even nice as a friend.. very self centred....

he also did not even telling me properly that he wants to ask me for movie and not telling me that it is cancelled till the last minute.. he wasn't even serious in trying to make an effort to watch it.. cos he didn't even check the timing for the movie! only told me when i asked him abt it.. its like, he will decide and only when i ask, he tells me.. he doesn't tell me voluntarily..

So... i am going to do this, i will do probably random tests for the next one week.. and if there is not improvement.. he will just remain as a friend.. no more no less... as it is, i am treating him like a friend.... don't want to go through that emotional roller coaster when it comes to the matters of the heart... so what of the personal no. he gave me.. i will view it as more of he uses it to send sms, cos the other no. is probably over loaded with sms received and sent... and calls from many many people cos he is in PR.... and that's that... no more no less... as for holding of arms etc.. i am open with all my gfs and AJ friends.. so i will treat him the same and think the same, which is nothing....

i will need some reminder in this matter man.. friends.. i will need your help...