Going round and round

Hmmm....
I been doing a lot of thinking recently... and i have been going round the same circles many many times with no answers...

have been thinking about the matter that happened between Chip Soon and Shitian.... as in why they broke up as i view both of them as very nice people.. so.. i was quite shock when i first got to know.. and both parties also admit that they did not have much bickers or quarrels...

then comes, hmmm is he now with Lilian.. cos the same gestures and suspicious scenes keep popping out when both of them talk...

The other question which i have been asking myself.. or should i say, bianca and i have been wondering.. is he BI?? oh man, the vibes are so mixed that i realy don't have any good feel... certain things tells me that he doesn't act like a straight guy.. but certain things, he acts like one... wah... damn tough... just like bianca, you cannot really tell, until she tells you cos the vibes are so mild that you have no FEEL...

And next is... i think which is quite obvious to me... is.. am i liking him more than just a friend or colleague... its not a strong feeling... just a mild one... i'm wondering if its the same phase which i usually will go through if i am too close to a guy.. (ehhh my AJ friends excluded) its a very mild and slowly growing one.. which is not good cos i am more careful with my words and being nicer to him... sighhh.. i don't want to go through this especially with someone from the office.. TABOO... and of cos.. there is a possibility that he is attached again... so its really something that i don't want to happen... i know i sound like i'm in denial.. but cannot loh... sighhh have to put a stop to it before it gets any deeper... knowing myself, i take such a bloody long time to like someone and a damn long time to get over someone... not going to be healthy loh...

from what i observed, he is a good friend lah... but as a bf, think he is not a good one.. maybe too inexperienced.... cos shitian is his first gf...

i have noticed that he is a nice guy lah... since before he and shitian got together... till now still think so.... slightly better terms with him now.. however, still got a lot things i dont know, not sure..

really don't want to plunge into this... i like him a bit lah.. but don't want to.. cos he is not my type (too family orientated), little common interests, and i'm also SOOOO not his type..

Sighhh... we shall see lah..... trying my best to get out this.... passing phase, please be over soon.... (=_=')