My first Bintan Trip - finding out a bit more of myself...

Went to Bintan on 30 Sept... It was celebration for Chris and Roy... Those in attendance were chris, roy (the 2 main leads), david, gene, shou chen, sebastian, jeremy, dave, jon and me... there were 10 of us... roy, dave, chris, seb and david left for Bintan on 29 Sept'06 vos they were able to make it a day earlier.. the rest of us went on Sat as we could only make it at that timing....

First of all, let me vent off the frustrations pent up during the past 2 days 1 nite with jeremy...
before the trip, i had a msn chat with jeremy on how to get to the ferry terminal etc... then, he was saying that he wants to pick me up from my event place from his place to the ferry terminal.. then i was like.. no.. better that we go separately cos i don't know what time my event will end... and it does not make sense for him to wait for me... after a torturing chat for abt 10mins.. and my insistence, we decided together that we will go on our separate ways... (i was really irritated at that pt of time, but of cos din show it lah) on sat late afternoon, i met jeremy and dennis at bugis cos i finished my event... i was carrying 4 bottles of water and some tibits.. to me.. the load is okie.. i can carry.. it was heavy but not that bad cos i have 2 hands.. BUT jeremy being the nice person he is, took everything off my hands.. was quite glad that the load is off my hands.. then we took the cab and sent dennis home first.. cos he was not invited to the bintan trip... he is not so bad already lah... think first impression was rather bad.. but meeting him for the 3rd time, he seems nicer and not so irritating...
then comes the part when we reached the ferry terminal.. the bill was 16.20... i took out 10bucks and he was like, no, he pay first.. he said deduct from the ferry fee he owed me.. but i felt that it only makes things more confusing... and also the motion sickness pills... he said the same thing... sigghhhh, THEN came an irritating part, he tied the plastic bag of the cake in the most auntie way of carrying... he did the same thing to the water.. it just made things look.. i don't know... very crumpled... arghhhh... when we were abt to leave, i attempted to carry one of the bags for the water... he said, hey you are a girl loh, cannot make you carry all these things (somehting along this meaning, cannot remember the exact meaning).. so i was made to carry the lightest thing, cake.. BUT the thing is, we had a lot of things to carry... really a lot.. and it really didn't make sense for only me to carry the cake... then he was still said: wah so many bottles of water.. very heavy leh... then i was like, come, pass one bag to me.. i can help carry.. AND he replied, no lah its okie.. wah piang... wat's the meaning of this man.... yes, gentleman you are, then don't make such comments... its very irritating.. really got a bit irritated already...
then we reached the villa at Bintan.... we were bbqing... there were mushrooms which were also being bbqed.. and he was helping to bbq... he passed the mushrooms which were not really cooked to the table.. it was the bqq kind of mushrooms that he bbqed for us.. he said, cooked already wat.. then i was like.. n loh.. its not... its suppose to be dryer and not so WET... *^@*$^^$@ think he never bbq mushrooms before.. he said, he find that its cooked.. then i told him rather irritatedly, that it was by my standards, NOT COOKED.... then came the prawns... sighh very small matter.. prawns cooked, need a plate to put... there was a plate nearby, just that it has the previous bbq food on and it was kind of oily... as the satay sticks were buring off, i told him, just use that plate.. then he said, its dirty.. i will go clean it.. then i told him, no need to be so NIAO loh.. can use one loh.. then before i knew it, he ran to get it cleaned.. i was like... huhh!! wah loh... need to be like or not... realising that i cannot do the bbqing with him AT ALL... i went back to the kitchen and helped gene to prepare food.. honestly, i felt that bbqing is more fun when its done together.. and he's not exactly very good at it loh.. then DON'T HOG the Tongs... and believe me, he didn't want me to bbq.. ARGHHHH... so pissed offf.. i have hands, legs and i believe i am better at bbqing than him loh.. all the food he took care of were all either burnt, not cooked or over done... he needed much practice with the food we had first to capture the gist of cooking.. yes, i know i am mean.. and he is trying to be helpful... BUT... if not good at it, try already not successful, let people take over please...
the thing that really got me was when gene was detained (again) due to wine matters which he didn't realised he had 2bottles, did the final trick... chris, seb and me were the last people to get out of the customs.. and when we came out, we realised that gene has been detained.. *SCREAM* oh NOooo... we were all quite worried... shou chen left first cos his parents were already there... and the next thing i noticed was that jeremy was on the phone... you will not be able to guess what he was doing.. he was trying to book a cab... really.. trying to book a cab... i was so shocked.. although my face didn't show it.. i mean gene is his good friend and how come he was in so much of a rush.. no matter what appointment.. i believe they would understand if you were late... i found that act inconsiderate and made me feel that he didn;t really care much.. maybe he has witnessed it the last 2 times and prob numbed.. BUT still.. i don't know.. if any of my friends were in trouble.. i would not do such things.. like trying to get a cab desperately... i mean... sighhh i also don't know what to say... he prob didn't realise it but, it was quite sad to see him doing that.. cos i thought he should have cared more...
chris was worried i had no one to go back with... so back at the chalet, he already told me of his plans... then asked me how am i going back.. so i said... don't know yet.. cos if i had enough energy, public transport is still an option... and he said, share with jeremy lah... he's going home right? ehhh honestly, this question kinda of made me speechless, cos i don't know how to reply... first of all, i was already irritated with jeremy, i have not really vent it off, and i had to share the cab back with him? aiyoh.. how to ans in the most diplomatic and non irritated way.. that was the killer... SOOO TOUGH.... that was not the end, as we were waiting for cabs at the terminal, chris checked with jeremy if he was going home... at that pt, i was really NOT in the mood already loh... and i don't want to be black face loh... very very hard.... my face ahh.. sighhh super terrible... luckily, Dave offered to send us out, so me, david and jeremy sat in the back seat.. dave suggested to have dinner together.. so we all decided... jeremy didn't answer.. so we assumed that silence meant consent... there we were reaching the place for dinner.. and he suddenly said: hey guys, i think i will make a move first... all of us were like huhhh.. and dave even said: then i shld have drove you nearer to the station... where its easier to get cabs... then a cab stopped nearby and i informed him of it.. so OFF he ran and hopped onto the cab.... sighh...

i know the above events sounds frivalous and really petty.. well, the accumulation of it over the past week, can get a little too much for me to bear.. when, i have had a 13days of work without any off day... cranky as it is, i have not enough rest AND my red tide is nearing.. all these combination is BAD.. i guess, i just don't like it when people try to be gentleman, be chauvanist and YET, made comments like: you are girl, you shouldn't carry heavy stuff... i remember molly yeo's comment on me was i try to be garang but i also want to act girlie.. very hard to decifer when i want to be what... after this incident, i guess, i want to act girlie, be able to dehhh (cos it can be quite fun, i cannot be YOOO YOOO all the time), gain some attention, act cute (i know its irritating) all these things.. BUT when it comes to matters like who should pay first, what i can carry and what i cannot carry or what i should do etc... THAT i guess, i have that independent streak in me that these are the things that i can decide and you don't need to decide for me.. as guys, gentleman i appreciate, like offering help to carry etc or even opening the door is fine, BUT when you decide what i can do, able to do or should do... i will get very irritated... i still appreciate people no matter make or female to offer help, open doors for each other, take the bill first etc... JUST dont' TELL me WHAT to DO... well, that's me, the incorherent self.. its either you love me, hate me or be confused... =) i realised, this incident, has allowed me to have a chance to see myself clearer in terms of my behaviour.. and able to reflect upon it... hah... so funny...

The good part of the trip was everyone had fun... the lazing by the pool was SOOOOO NICE... really liked to chill out and fully relax under the sun, by the sand and sea... ahhhhh sooooooo nice..... oh my..... the food prepared by gene was FANTASTIC... the other food were all very nice too!! most of all, the birthday boys did like the gifts... cos they were the main leads for this trip... happy birthday GUYS!!! LOVE YA ALLL....