A day with the guys

Woah, it has been quite a while since i met the guys... really missed it man.. although today, roy was not around.. but it was alright... with chris, dave, david and seb around..

we had dinner at abt 930pm.. (as usual, what's new..) and there i blurted out the matter that has been bugging me all week... sighhh... chris's mind was somewhere out there.. so he wasn't really able to focus... luckily, there was still dave and david who were willing to listen and offer some form of advice... Thanks guys...
After describing to them abt the situations that happened.. the following was discovered lah...
1) MCP cos he will only contact me when he is free... and when he is busy or occupied, he does not call or even sms at all
2) always call me last min or make last min appointments
3) expects me to make time for him or to be free to meet him when he is available..
4) still not stable yet... not mature in thinking abt what is a relationship
5) he prob has taken me for granted that i will always be free to meet him

then we also came up with 2 possibilities:
a) he is interested to go into something more serious
b) he is just looking for a companion (a friend) to fill up the gaps of time whereby he is free...

looking at this, it sounds more like the 2nd possibility... which does make me kind of ARGHHH feeling... looking at the visible signs... he does not want any relationship yet... well.. he did say, to him to have a relationship or not is not really a matter of must.. so i assume, he is highly likely to be in the second choice...

Had a good chat with dave on the way back... i felt quite bad in making him listen to me talk abt this matter and trying to decifer what this idiot guy is thinking... however, he did lah.. thanks dave... i owe you one...

dave adviced me to rethink abt what i do wanna do, as in, do i like him too and interested in moving on, to test water with why did he do certain actions... to be honest, i never thought abt this matter so throughly till today.. was glad to be able to talk it out with someone, a guy.. who gave me more ideas abt it... and of cos, broken down the unexplainable actions with me...

Hence, after rethinking, i have decided to stay as friends first... not going to let this idiot take me for granted.. and of cos, no reply his sms as on prompt.. i can still do it on prompt and totally don't sms him after a while.. pull his heart strings a bit.. which i can safely say, what heart strings, there isn't any...
I also need to take note not to give in or allow him to make such LAST min arrangements.. in other words, don't sound too enthu or allow him to take things for granted that i am always free to meet him... terrible sia...

on friday, the sms were going on like crazy with abt almost 20+messages sent by me only to him.. to and fro, including his, maybe abt 50sms altogether... and suddenly, today, sat, there has been not a single sms from him.. i even initiated an sms earlier in the day asking how is he... BUT NOOOOO... he does not reply me at all..

i would expect the same thing to happen on sunday... will most prob be meeting florence, karen and gang for supper or drinks.. cos karen going back to US soon... i will only be able to meet them after a concert that i'm going to watch at EXPO... don't know what time i can meet themn also.. wish me LUCK...

hmm think i will still carry on asking if possible to hitch a ride to work... but other than that, think i won't really ask him out anymore... cos no point, he is always telling me he not free, if not last min changes thus not able to go.. sooo.... and i don't want to look like i'm so HUNGRY for his company...

think i'm now more calm and have more collected thoughts rather than all over the place... i have to thank them for giving me attention esp DAVE who gave me a good 30mins of his time before he went home... THANK YOU...