Abrupt Move

Just got the news from my boss, and guess what, that fantastic woman told me that new girl wil be coming next tues and she wants me to do handover asap.. and probably teach the new girl accounts over the phone... i was like huhh?? is she serious? i guess most of us tend to assume things without finding out the truth.. in this case, i think to assume is the ass between U and me.. Kinda of sian when she told me cos i was like totally not prepared for it at all! cos i thought the newbie will be coming in the mid of april..

so not prepared to tell me kids that i'm leaving.. think probably i'll break the news to them on sunday.. terrible.. such an abrupt termination... i am totally not prepared at all.. really not feeling good at all.. going to leave the club i've been at for the past 1 and half years.. a place that i've learn to be very familiar with and love...not to mention that it is very near town and i meet fidah for dinner at cityhall during dinner time during work anymore... kinda of sad... i have to move to another place again. a new place a new environment and be very plastic with the NEW pple i'll be meeting.. Gosh, i'm really not prepared at all.. I guess if i was moving out the organisation to another place, i probably won't feel this sad... I don't think anyone has the chance to be like me.. 2 yrs plus in this job and i've been moved 3 times.. all not voluntary at all.. so unfair... cos i always believe that youthwork is a long term process with the youth.. i think i'm being to understand a little bit more on what i wanna do.. there's still lots more to discover under that huge heap of earth..

i guess i will miss my colleague the most cos he's been like a father to me... to be frank i think i've talked to him more than i've ever talked to my own dad... we talked about passion, work, how are the kids, a preception from his generation, advises... i've been very lucky to have know this colleague.. quite sad that i'm leaving the place.. not that i won't be seeing him anymore during work just that its just not going to be the same anymore.. his presence at the workplace has been the boost for me to continue working her, the passion and persistency and going all he way out for the youth, really spur me on, to believe that passion can last for such a long long time..

its always a blessing if work is something that you not only enjoy but also believe in, where the passion lies.. i hope that the passion wil continue to burn in me for a long long time.. pray hard hard lah...