Clearing up misunderstanding

Hmm... remember abt the guy that i mentioned about earlier on?? i checked with a friend in the office.. and she cleared my doubts abt him giving me his private no... well she said immediately, don't worry, he is not hitting on you.. SUDDENLY.. i was very relieve.. i cannot put my finger on it... i did get excited and misunderstood his intentions.. BUT... i was very glad.. cos i didn't need to worry about the need to test him etc.. the urge of wanting to find out more. i think it was the curosity that was getting to me.. i was really really too curious abt the matter for my own good..

i guess, through this, i realised that i am actually not so keen in getting serious or attached.. cos the thought of it.. made me really think through many many things. i aklso realised that i am not as cool as i thought i am abt relationships like its okie to see my better less than 2x a month... well.. now i am pretty sure i am just the same as any other person when it comes to love.. i have my edgey moments, my suspense, my expectations of a better half.. oh my goodness.. i do have high expectations!! or i think its the spending time portion that i have higher expectations than the rest... so sad... time to rethink abt this matter man...

currently, we are maintaining contact and i will ask him out as my usual self.. not much of diff and him being too busy, forget abt actually going to a movie or coffee with him, cos its always spontaneous.. which is not really preferred by me.. oh well, he will most prob become a buddy of mine again.. hmmmmm i really wonder when i can find the person who will be that special person and not be my buddy as all my guy friends turned out... oh man...