An update after a long long while

Its been more than a month since i've updated this blog, to be frank kinda of miss typing things in here cos i did promise to keep this diary updated more often than once a month...

well, somethings have chaanged over the past month.. i've finally moved out of T-Net and gone to the CDC to work... 4th of july was my first day and boy oh boy, i was in for a surprise.. This place is full of hmm how should i put it, not many extroverted people, many keep to themselves hence you can not many of them were actually friendly with me.. i tried to put on my best smile and be friendly but all i got was a cold shoulder from them.. but gradually, i found one nice person in the office and she's suppose to be my mentor to help me out during my short term of orientation for a week.. kinda of intimidating.. this new place.. they are not like the people whom i used to work with, they don't seem to be as friendly and willing to guide you as people were in my previous place.. it just feels like, hmm i don't know, cold and liveless... now i'm begining to worry that i might not be able to survive in this work environment but what i worry most is that it will change my attitude and happy go lucky behaviour, cos it is what keeps me happy, confident and most of all its what keeps me going.. think i will need loads of reminder if i have changed etc.... i wanna be the happy and lively person that i know i am and can be...

well, one resolution is to keep my head above the water and most of all not tread on the toes of my sup for i believe she's known to have a fiery temper... scary man.. i got a rub of it just on the offical 2nd day of work and it wasn't even my fault.. she's my sup, naturally i will have to check stuff with her, i mean 2nd day only, once i'm more familiar, i definitely will find ways to solve it myself.. man oh man, she's one hard nut to crack.. *worried look*
she seemed friendly at first, but from what i observe and what one or two colleagues unknowing leaked out, i think she has got quite a temper and not to be disturbed when busy... sigh... what have i gotten myself into man... this is even worse than 1 thought.. what's more is that i have a paycut of $300.. what the fish... what did i trade myself over for man... i might as well gone back to YM.. or apply to go back to YM... sigghhhhh.. at least bosses are nicer and probably less tempremental.. oh well, i just hope i can get myself safely out of this mess that i've gotten myself into..

guess i'll be needing all the support i can get man... and of cos a lots of luck to get myself through this.. BUT what i am there for is to learn about the resources and more about the social agencies within the community.. so i have to remind myself this when i feel low or upset.. for this is to add more to my profile.. have to bear in mind man... i think i need lots of support from my friends.. for i think i won't be getting much from my colleagues i guess... as long as they don't gossip or involve me in office politics, i think i can consider myself lucky...

praying really hard now....