Valentine's Day

What a start of the day! received a call from my colleague at 2.00pm telling me that her workplace was broken into in bright daylight. my goodness! it was 6 teenagers from her club and the best thing was that they actually planned to do this the day before. i mean, seriously, who would have thought that these kids will actually bite the hand that has been kind to them. the feeling is beyond description.it reminded me of the time when a member of my club stole my hp and wallet. really disillusioned with working with youths. But i'm happiest when i can help someone, how am i going to bring myself to an equlibrium with my passion to help others and yet at the same time still not be disillusioned?

spoke to jason the other day and he asked what's my plans for my job change. i told him, i'm still ding donging between social services and project management. maybe he's rite, i do need a break from working at the ground level with the youths. but then again, i'm not sure. i think i really need to rethink my goal in life. the feeling of hanging in the air is really horrible. everyday just passes by like that without much thought.

Valentines day was planned initially to spend with my best friend jo. but somehow or another, it ended up with me, jo, chris and andrew. roy was suppose to join us but he had dance class which he wasn't able to skip. andrew was really sweet, he bought flowers for me and jo. after dinner, (which we had ice wine), we proceeded to Partyworld at Civic plaza for a KTV session. Andrew couldn't join us cos he had to pick up his wife who's working till 11.

the singing session was fine, and chris made me sing a few songs with my "real" voice, no falsato to be used at all. nearly died from the stretching of my vocal chords. not used to it i guess cos i always felt that it sounded like shouting. but both jo and chris said it was fine. somehow i'm not really convinced. i guess i'm just not confident abt it and not used to it.

somehow i feel as if there is a gap growing between me and chris. don't know why also, maybe i don't talk so much when we're out. somehow i think i'm the one with the problem. don't know what's wrong also. i think too much! one of my new year resolution was to think abt such stuff less, seems like i'm not keeping to my new year resolution. bad start for the year... HELP!!