Dramas of 2004

The year 2004 hasn't been a very fantastic one cos i went through a few dramas.
They were upseting events but when i look back now, these events has added some
colour to boring year i had.

Being of the year, 3 of my colleagues left the organisation. What a start to the year of 2004!
All 3 being good working buddies of mine, i was quite sad to see them go but i know its
for the better cos they found jobs they are interested. Love you all, good luck with your new jobs!

Somewhere in march a friend back from sec came back to my life. Ever since then, i have lots
to handle. First was the fact that her boyfriend was younger than her by 4 years and the best part was that he was a jerk who is only looking for a sexual partner. Sad huh... i was constantly reminding my friend about this, and as usual it fell on deaf ears. My beloved friend was so blinded by love that when she got pregnant, she still believed that the guy loves her despite the fact that he doesn't want to pick up her calls, refused to have a part in the abortion process. Being her good friend, i went through the whole process with her. I met her whenever i could, trying my best to console her, the agony of choosing birth of the child or abortion. The final decision abortion which was the most rational choice cos she had no way of bringing up the child, for she is jobless. However, even after all this, she still had the lingering thought of patching up with him, doing things with his best friend in hope of upseting him etc. God she even drinks becos of this. I cannot remember how many drinking sessions we had, no. of phonecalls i had, but she was still in denial. The final straw came when she came onto my gay friend, C whom she knows is gay. The fateful night, i was suppose to meet C at a gay ktv pub for drinks when she called me to ask me out. Hence i thought to myself, "why not? they know each other anyway" When we were there, we ordered a few drinks and she had quite a bit of it. As we had to work the next day, both of us left earlier for home. I specifically dropped her home first so that she can rest a little bit more. Later that night at 3.30am (i only managed to fall alseep at 3am), C called me in an exclaimed tone, "Hey, I see J lying dead drunk here! She's at my block, at my lift landing! What is she doing here!" With that i woke up immediately and asked C to do me a favour of bringing her back to his house to rest while i rush down to fetch her. I knew her bf stayed rather near to C but she never knew the exact lift landing to get off. On the way to C's place, i received 2 more panicky calls. It was upon reaching his place that i got to know why did he called my another 2 more times. Apparently, she came on to my friend, C and to be fair i shan't say what she did. I nearly fainted on the spot and C was pretty angry cos he had some work to do and taking care and letting her sober up at his place till 6.30am was not helpful at all. During the whole time she was at his place, she tried calling her bf non stop asking him whether does he still love her. I mean what was she thinking! it was 4plus am in the morning! During the sobering up process, she told us that she met her bf for drinks at a coffeeshop near his house after i dropped her off and she told to go back and leave her alone. Suddenly i felt so tired of her drama which was becoming part of my life too. She did not really apologise for her behaviour towards me or to my friend C after this incident. And she also denies her actions which i thought was irresponsible, becos of her, both C and i can't do our work properly the next day, and not even a word of sorry and thanks to us for taking care of her at all. It was really it! I've had enough. i told her to give us both time (3months) to cool down and rethink about our friendship. That was on 21st August 2004 and i've not spoken to her since. Maybe i should start to call her cos she sms me to ask how was i, etc but i guess i wasn;t ready for her to come back to my life.

Oh did i tell you that i was holding a torch for a friend of mine for almost a year? he's not exactly the type of guys i go for, oh well, you don;t usually fall for the ones you look out for don't you? In december i thought, "what the heck? i'll tell him" I was going through the lines that i would say to him in my head and with my best friends so much so that i decided not to tell him in the end. For there was no point in doing this as i know the feeling is not mutual. And knowing him, he won't have any reactions of whatsoever to what i was going to tell him. From then on, i told myself, he's only going to be my friend cos i'm not in the important list of his friends. So better not to risk of getting hurt right? I guess loving him as a friend is better... friends do keep a lookout for your dear friend here k... =)