Changing of Jobs - A Mind Boggling Issue

Am now seated in the office of the club that i'm covering today.. I was on time only becos i took a cab today... it only costed me $6, my usual to Bukit Merah would cost $14.50. what a contrast in terms of distance and price..

i received a call from NVPC asking me to go for their second interview on wednesday 12.05pm, what's with the .05? beats me, i think we're the only country in the world that uses such precise timing.. 12.05pm, why not just 12pm or even 12.15 or even 12.30pm? I told the phone that i cannot make it cos i work the earlier shift in my current work and there is not enough people to cover me already... bugger, guess what she said? she said, our CEO is only free at 12.05 if not latest 12.30pm... i was thinking, can't you give me another slot on another day? cos i know they are selecting more than 1 people for their second interview, so please don't tell me that you cannot arrange my interview on another day... annoying like mad... how to clear my half day like that? maybe i'll clear it on fri and sun, i guess..

I know i have been flipping the papers for the recruit section every saturday now but honestly, there doesn't seem to have much jobs that i can apply for...

I'm caught in between doing direct work or indirect work with the youth and children.... i love the constant contact with these youths for they are very interesting and understanding them better has always gave me job satisfaction in my current job, maybe cos its not happening now that's why i'm looking out for jobs out there... the jobscope at NVPC, is very different from the current one i'm doing.. from direct work to indirect work, from moderate amount fo paperwork to the hugh amount of paperwork, from my current pay to drop of $450... what a differece man.. do i really welcome this kind of change? do i really wanna suffer a pay cut and go into something much more tedious than my current job? do i really wanna do indirect work? will i miss the kind of interaction with youths? i think i will.. although i know i have problems with the hardcore problem kids nowadays, i still like the challenge... working with adults is a challenge (very BIG one in fact and the office politics) but working with children and youths are also very challenging and the things you do may and can affect thair future lives.. Isn't it a very challenging job? Maybe i've embarked on the wrong job in the very begining.. I should have persisted in looking for a job that would enhance my counselling and therapy skills first before doing something so generic... Now, after 2 years, i do not possess the kind of profession skills that i wished to obtain in the begining...

Last year, during my bangkok trip, i had a tarot card reading.. the lady said, you last longer and is much happier beinging able to help others.. I mean, here is this lady who doesn't know me, but able to see that i am happier in work that enables me to help others.. she quoted some egs such as doctors, nurses, counsellor, etc... how funny when i told her of my current job, she said, it is something along the line of work you prefer right? carry on in this direction and you will be happy in your work life... How true... of cos i took her words with a pinch of salt.. but thinking back now, i realised that it is true.. i wanna be in a job whereby i can help people.. i did think of a career change maybe even to become a nurse BUT i cannot stand the sight of wounds, so i can jolly well forget it...

i came across a ad on recuit looking for medical social workers.. well, i have to say, i was tempted.. cos it will somehow help me in my growth in terms of my professional growth BUT i also checked it out with my friends who are MSW, they did warn me that it is a lot on case management also.. hence, i have to think twice but nevertheless, it will help in terms of my skills in counselling, grief counselling etc.. Tempted.. still am tempted.. however, as all VWOs, the pay for such jobs is low... abt $2k and less... stressed.. how to make it you tell me... the monetary issue is also very tricky cos i've going through my expenses and i cannot seem to find a way to cut cost with half of my current pay about 1k into bills, loans, etc which are fixed payments every month... boy am i stressed....

I mean i have been waiting for chances of internal transfer but so far there hasn't been any one available for social assistance.. i am interested to work in the social assistance section for CDCs... i need to wait for my chance.. but its been so long that i'm beinging to wonder if there will be such a chance..

There doesn't seem to be any solutions to this issue at all... even after typing so much, i still have no ans... i hope i find an ans soon.. cos i don't wish to idle my time, and i'm still young! if i don't do things i wanna do now, i may not be able to do it in the future...